But the thing is I really don't have an answer. I currently have a few friends who regularly update their Facebook account with gorgeous pictures of themselves and this inspires me to experiment with textures and colours and materials and canvasses and frocks myself. Some of my friends have just a delightful ability to experiment with these things; some of them are perhaps just a little shallow. While I am dreaming about experimenting with textures and frocks, I am not dreaming about taking pictures of me experimenting with textures and frocks and uploading them to Fb.
But this is the second part of the dilemma, what is wrong with doing so? The thing is, I really do find myself a little bit interesting. I find myself beautiful, my hair long, my outfits feminine. I find the things I find interesting or pretty as interesting and pretty. I want to be in communication with other people about these interesting and pretty and intelligent things. I want my horizons to expand; but I want this expansion of my horizons to be active. I want to be the one expanding my horizons and to somehow have a record of this. Fb is that record. But somehow this makes me narcissistic; somehow, this means I am boasting. And if I kept a file on my computer of all the awesome outfits I wore to all those cool happening parties, who would be there to appreciate them? What would be the point?
I often think the solution to this dilemma is to do something creative or artistic with these pictures or these thoughts and ideas. This canvasses my narcissism with a piece of creative "art"; it is socially acceptable to appreciate someone's "art".
This is imperfect, however. Doing so introduces a new element which may be judged, and judged harshly; you may not like my art.
